Moving My Thoughts :)

I have had so many issues with people reading and having negative responses on my facebook page. I have deleted it and re-activated it time and time again because of issues of something I said or posted. Anyone who knows me knows that I am a speaker - and I will say anything that I feel when I feel it no matter whom it might effect. It does NOT mean that I am a mean person, it just means that I like to express my feelings. I am real and honest and my feelings are true and deep rooted.

With that being said, I do realize that some people feel I am a little too open with information that some people may not want to know. I like to post pictures of things I buy, random things I see, places me and the kids go, etc. Some people in my life KNOW that that is just who I am, but others see that as bragging or just purely useless. At first I had that "I don't care what people think" attitude, but as I have grown older I realize that some things are just better left unsaid. I have been having so many struggles lately with my relationship with God. All people go through stages of grief when the experience a loss, but my "mad at God" stage seemed to last a little longer than I had hoped. I had to step back and take a good hard look at my life and the way that I was living - and had to come to a real, raw conclusion that God may have had a huge plan for my life and needed my child as an angel - for a reason!

My dear friend Brittani has given me a life lesson that most people will never get. She just confronted me with the cold hard truth. At first, I was extremely mad when she asked "are you mad at God?" I thought in my head "YES!!, but it's none of your business" so then I asked her "are you worried about me?" I sat here in my room and thought about the question she had asked me and it took her awhile to respond - and in that time I felt that maybe at some point while she was talking to God, he had put me on her heart - Me, little ole me, who has completely given up on my relationship with God. So when she text me back "yes", all the emotions flowed - and it made me think... really hard for a really long time. It made me realize that my friendship with her is a little deeper than I thought - and that as a Christian, I still am accountable for my life no matter what i'm going through!

My decision to re-activate my Facebook page and allow anyone and everyone to be my friend was a result of me deciding to post my photos and stories here on my blog rather than on Facebook. Anyone can be my friend on Facebook, see a photo, or read a status - but they cannot see into my real life unless they are a part of this blog. This blog will be private soon and I will spend more time here giving details of my day, talking interior design with my friends, and sharing my struggles with depression, infertility, and life as mom and wife. If you want to read these things, then you are welcome here - and if not, then that's okay too.

This is who I am - the real, raw, honest, me and for that I won't apologize.

Over the next few days you will notice alot of posts simply with pictures from the past or a random story. This is just to help me get all the photos and memories from Facebook and share them here. Once all of this work is done, I will continue my normal posts like always, but they will be private. Do not forget to become a follower by clicking the FOLLOW ME link currently on the left hand side. Thank you to all who have supported us and I look forward to sharing my life with my blogger friends.