Big Snow 2010

First BIG snow of 2010 happened on CHRISTMAS!!!
This was my view the day after Christmas from my kitchen window.

We spent alot of time playing with these...

and I spent alot of time playing with this!! :)

I'm curious to see what Santa brought all my readers!

I'm officially a red head!

I figured New Year, New Me right? :)

Wilson Christmas 2010

The Great Grandchildren minus Bo and Emmett ... Poor Kyndal!
The presents that santa left in the living room! YAY!!

The boys got bicycles this year from their Poppi :)

I had to post this picture because in typical wife and mom fashion,

someone spilled something and it was freaking me out so my husband

grabbed the camera and caught me doing this while people were eating!

As I sat here uploading the pictures, I realized what a blessing it was to have my granny Wilson here for Christmas. She is in part one of Hospice at home and we were told last Christmas that we would not be able to share another one with her - and we were prepared for that. Isn't it funny how God is constantly reminding us that it's HIS timing, not ours? And I get my stubbornness from her so I know she will go when she is ready. I talked to her one day and she told me that she was ready to go see Jesus. I have never felt so at peace with her death - but also just seeing the reality of it. My grandparents, also known as the superheroes of my life, are going to die.

Death is something that I just have a hard time all around dealing with. After all, the only people close to my that I have lost in my life were my two great uncles before my nana died. I still haven't grieved properly for her and I still haven't processed the fact that I will have to bury the WOMAN of my life. The only woman who was there for me and never left. Without detailing too much from my childhood, I spent most of those years living with my Granny and Papaw Wilson. They made sure I was fed, clothed, and also that I had a relationship with Christ. I remember how proud and excited my grandparents were when I bought my first Christian CD, when I went on my first Christian retreat, when I joined Big Emory Baptist Church, when I started singing in the choir... and how their attachment to Christ and how it had changed their life made me want to change mine. I hope that my children look back and say that same thing about me, but I know I need to promote that so much more than I have lately.

I guess that comment brings us to the New Years post. Happy New Year, ya'll! (In the South we say ya'll to our close friends and family!)

West Christmas 2010

This was our first Christmas at mom's house without Nana there. I was really filled with sadness when I was out shopping and realized that there was no need for a present for sweet Nana this year. She was always so excited to see her grandchildren open their Christmas presents. I was really lucky to have such a wonderful woman in my life and I hope that she is looking down on me and is proud of the woman I have become.

An Update

So, for all the readers who have kept up with our baby making plans on this blog, I figured I would let you all know what has happened in the last few days. I have been diagnosed with endometrial hyperplasia and have also suffered from panic attacks and a horrible infection in my gastrointestinal tract - all from female problems caused by endometriosis. The doctors are pretty sure that I am not ovulating and will not be able to get pregnant. We have tried everything, but IVF and have decided that is not an option for us so we will no longer be "trying" to have a baby. If for some miraculous reason I end up pregnant, it will be on God's timing and not ours.

In other news, I want everyone to pray for this family - http://threedoodles.blogspot.com/ . They lost one of their twenty month old twins, Evie Grace Harrison, in her sleep on December 9th. The person taking it the worst is her twin sister, Ramsey. I was heartbroken when I heard this story. Please take the time out to leave them some words of encouragement.

And also, I will be posting pictures from the last two weeks very soon to get caught up. The blogging world has been the last thing on my mind with illness, Christmas, life, etc...