One Month

It has been one month since we lost our baby and not a day goes by that I don't do the normal "what if's". You try to find a new normal after you have lost a child. I have had 3 miscarriages prior to this miscarriage and I truly understand that every miscarriage is different, but the real struggle was the labor and actually having to see the baby that just shakes your world as you know it.

Some of you have asked a few questions that I wanted to try to answer. The first was how we actually found out the sex of the baby. We did not know the sex of the baby so we chose to have testing done to find out and also to test for chromosome abnormalities. A few people asked how I got so sick so quick. Without being too graphic, I did not pass my afterbirth until two days later and I was at home alone so I decided to bag it up and take it straight to the hospital as well. They did testing there to learn that I had a staph infection and we are not sure whether I had it before or after. I had a urinary tract infection one month prior to this and any and all meds were just not clearing it up. I haven't been very healthy for about two years especially after my 3rd miscarriage last November where I bled for 60 days straight after and had many other complications. We believe that there was some negligence on part of our medical staff because of things they said and did prior to the loss of our child, but we have since contact a lawyer and a specialist and plan to pursue legal action if necessary. The last question seems to be either can we get pregnant again or will we try again and the answer is YES. We were given the okay to try again as of June 19th. We do plan to try again with no meds and we are also looking into fostering and adoption.

I am so lucky that I have had so many friends to help me get through all of this and carry me along the way. I have people writing me everyday telling me how my story touched their life. I encourage you to make a donation in Allie's honor if you are lead to do so. Thank you for everything and as long as I have people reading, I will continue to share my story...

I will eventually be sharing a picture of our baby. This picture is very graphic in nature. I will simply post a link to the photo and those of you who have asked to see her and pray for her and spend time seeing her can choose to look at the photo or print. Please do not share this photo with anyone else without my permission. I will edit this post with the link when I have finished.

Boys, Prayers, Baseball, and Storms!

My husband met a family while working in Pikeville that have a 4 year old son

suffering from Brain and Spine Cancer. Please pray for comfort and recovery for

Justin Tollett. I cannot imagine and what he and his family is going through.

I met these little boys via an adoption and fostering website. I have been extensively

researching what life would be like IF Dj and I decided adoption or fostering

would fit in with our family plan. If we did decide to go this direction, we would be looking

for older children and possibly siblings. I didn't expect to fall in love just through pictures

but those faces are just too much for one mommy's heart to handle - how cute are they?

Please pray that no matter they end up, they get a good loving forever home

and that they are not split up. The oldest, Tommy, is very protective over his brothers

and it would be a tragedy for someone to adopt them and not him.

This is Ace's first year playing baseball and his dad's work actually was the sponsor.

How cute are these kids too? I love to see them be so funny out on the field.
We have had HORRIBLE storms in Tennessee this week and we are under tornado watch tonight until 8pm. Ace has his last game and then I am supposed to drive 2 hours to Nashville to spend a little time with husband and then drive back home - I know, i'm the best wife ever :)

SYTYC..dance,dance,dance...

I just cannot get enough of this show! If you are not watching, you are missing out. It comes on Wednesday 8/7 and Thursday 9/8 on Fox if you would like to check it out! Go Chris!!!

Throughout the weekend, I will be posting some youtube videos of my favorite dances from past seasons. What are your favorites?

We're remodeling!

The blog that is! If you haven't checked out http://www.sweetiebabysblogdesign.com/ you really should! She is reasonably priced and did my first design and now - number two! I was ready for something different and unique and I plan to start blogging everyday (Lord willing!) so I contacted her today to get something started for us! Keep looking for updates!! And, by the way, I have blogged a few times today to try to get caught up since I took a month away after the loss of our child (the month anniversary is today, rest in peace sweet Allie!) and I hope you all are enjoying getting caught up on our lives! More to come!! :)

Wrestlemania 2011

My dad and Ace were like best buds through the whole thing!
Blaze was acting like another wrestler..just being silly!

This is what 80,000 people looks like.. it was crazy!

This is the Atlanta Georgia Dome... and it was packed from end to end!

Blaze had lots of fun too!!

Wrestlemania was awesome! I was really feeling bad the whole time we were there (morning sickness although I didn't know I was pregnant - thought I had the "flu"), so we didn't do as much as I would have liked, but we tried to do the best we could. We did alot of other things while in Georgia (more posts to come), but we went there for one big reason and this was it. My dad has been waiting 27 years to see a Wrestlemania live and to see his face light up being there was something I will never forget and worth every penny of the trip! We weren't in the best seats (seats sold out in 7 minutes ya'll!) but we still got a great view of all the people coming in from their walk out... and it was something that bonded all of us for life - and something my kids will never be able to forget as well.