A Confident Woman....

After the post I wrote yesterday, I know you all were expecting some crazy emotional post, but it won't happen today. I wanted to just throw in some randoms before the weekend - because I do have something planned for the blog. First of all, I heard Kim K. is getting married August 20th. I have to admit that I watch her show, but I see it as such a shame to what society has allowed marriages to become. She knows a guy for 3 months, gets engaged, and gets married all within ONE SEASON of a show - but what people do not see is that she is a rolemodel for our next generation of females who think that is what marriages and relationships have become. What happens when she decides it isn't what she wants? Well, she goes to a lawyer and gets a divorce and moves on - it has become simple as that. I am not a mother of a daughter, but I fear we are raising a bunch of future Kim K's :(
A confident woman is beautiful - inside and out. Just something random I thought I would throw out there. I am known for being somewhat random, but maybe not to my readers - yet. I loved these flowers and just wanted to share... and some of you needed to see them and realize that they can resemble whatever you wish. We had a loved one named Kerrie give us the news of her miscarriage today and it was that flood of emotion for me because I know what she is going through. It has been six weeks on Saturday - and it still feels like yesterday. When I saw these flowers, I thought of her and thought I would share. I hope she's reading this and realizes how much we truly do love her and pray for her comfort and healing.

This is my new favorite book. Since it's already July and you are supposed to start you know umm New Year's Day - I have been reading it as I can. It is AMAZING. I love how some of the words come alive off the page and speak to me - and I have even shared a few with the hubs! So what makes a confident woman?

I decided to share a random photo of the kids when they were smaller just because I see them growing up way too fast before my eyes. I will never forget this day in the picture above. It was the day that I found out my grandmother had multiple myeloma and was given 12-18 months to live. I put the gate up for the first time so the boys wouldn't see me cry - but instead they stood at the door and just did nothing but smile at me so I gave up and picked up the camera and took this picture. Today I look at the date - and the fact my grandmother is still alive 3 years later - and realize that this too shall pass... and yes, I realize that my grandmother is dying.. but I was just a young girl then still struggling with my own emotions and I wasn't ready to let go. I have had that conversation with my granny about life after she is gone and now is the right time - for the whole family. That sounds completely selfish, but there is your honesty. This is by no means a perfect blog!

It has been almost a year since my nana passed away. I still remember the last conversation we have and feel ashamed. I was calling to talk to my mom and nana picked up the phone instead. She asked about the kids and about me and never once did I ask how she was doing or feeling. Inside she was dying of heart failure and didn't even realize it - and she was asking about me. She died a week later and nobody even knew she was sick. How's that for humble pie? We really do need to take to heart that each day could be our last and that we should get all the hate and bitterness and resent and just let it all go. God wants so more for us than that. I will be taking that advice to heart this weekend as I go on a forgiving adventure and forgive someone who recently really deeply hurt me along with other members of my family.

Something I will not forgive is the two rotten, no good, horrible wasps that attacked my baby in our pool. The boys kept complaining that they were flying around, but it wasn't until these two bad stings that we really we had two huge nests under our pool deck and two more along our guest house exterior. Ace did a great job being a big boy - but he was glad to see daddy out there today killing the rest of them just to be safe!

And, as if one nasty insect was not enough, I got a tick bite over a week ago and thought that we got it all out - only realizing after picking at it that the head was still in. I ended up making Blaze help me get the rest of it out and it bled like nothing I had ever seen before. It was just dripping into the sink and nothing was stopping it - I literally went through four band-aids before it gave up and scabbed over. Boo for bugs!!

One more random thing before I go and that is - how amazing does this new fencing look?

It was a requirement for insurance purposes and I was way less than thrilled about having to put it on, but hubby and his friend Art did an AMAZING job and I think it looks alot better. I have a weird OCD phobia about above ground pools - I just think they are wayyy tacky in most cases. I am so sorry to all my above ground pool owners - but when we bought this house, I really loved the way the pool looked and now that the fencing is up, I can live with my beautiful, redneck above ground pool (I kid, I kid!)

Ace has something he would like to say now..... wweace :)